When you get deeply invested in certain characters, like when reading a novel, playing a game or a visual novel, watching an anime, engrossing in the Touhou fandom, or something, does it ever change how you view depictions of them, like lewd images of them here on yandere?

I've always had the curse that every time i get really engrossed in a specific character/story, I find myself harder and harder to use imagery of them for those 'special sessions', often not at all anymore. Sometimes even images that 'worked' great before I watched or played something, don't work at all anymore afterwards.

But that seems a bit backwards because the doujin and merchandise scene is essentially about of taking popular characters and catering to fetishes/fantasies of those, being basically the base of the otaku fandom in Japan (or at least a big part of it).

So, just throwing out a question out of curiosity, am I the only one that happens to?